This started off as a
“short story” with the working (never to be final) title
“Forcing Autistics to Make Eye Contact: Help or Hindrance?
I was set on producing an adapted-for-non-autistics, straight to the point, communication.
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Inevitably, it’s ended up as a “long story”
with the full autistic communication experience because, in the end, the tangents & fuller picture are as important to me as the original short story (& I’ve already invested much too much time in multiple edits to get to this point).
For even longer
I’ve been pondering the persistence of
a general misunderstanding of what it is to be autistic.
How society continues to misinterpret & vilify autism & mostly miss what are innate autistic strengths. It’s frustrating, scary & forces many autistics to remain “in the closet” about or, worse, unaware of their true identity & authentic autistic self.
Anyone can look up autism diagnostic criteria but it does tend to be deficit focussed. Whilst we shouldn't underestimate the "deficits (or ignore the "difficulties"), for simplicity's sake I say:
Autistics communicate differently.
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I’m convinced that the key to mutual understanding between autistics & non-autistics lies in a mutual appreciation, acceptance & accommodation of each others’ communication differences.
I choose to identify as
a Native Autistic, Talking Autistic, first language Autistic.
If others can think of me as such
then I believe we establish a stronger foundation
from which to forge that mutual understanding.
And by language & talking I don’t necessarily mean speaking.
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Unconvinced?
Well, let’s investigate this
by looking at one facet of autistic communication that contravenes non-autistic communication convention:
(Eye to) Eye contact, or lack of.
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Let’s start by considering a scenario
with a deaf person who relies on an interpreter
to translate the spoken word into sign language:
- What would you think if the person “speaking” became offended by a deaf person not looking at them because they were focussed on their interpreter in order to “hear” & understand?
- What would you think if the person “speaking” forced a deaf person to look at them whilst they were speaking? Who benefits?
- How do you think a deaf person would feel if forced to look at the person “speaking” rather than their interpreter? Misunderstood, disempowered, disabled, upset, frustrated, angry even? Maybe excluded, victimised, bullied or abused?
All possible.
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I'm enjoying watching Strictly this year,
in particular the evolving relationship between
Giovanni & Rose (who’s deaf). It’s been a joy to see not only the successful & respectful inclusion & acknowledgement of Rose’s interpreters but also the efforts made by everyone to “talk” to Rose in a language she can more easily receive. And it’s been a joy to see how Rose has been enabled & encouraged to explore other forms of communication that work for her, like learning the Foxtrot by “feel” through the movements of Giovanni’s body.
As a native Autistic (1st language Autistic remember)
I relate to this strongly. Notice how communication ... how “talking” ... is enabled by more than just speech, more than sign, but through touch, sight & so on?
This is what it is to be autistic, with one big difference ... one big hindrance: others misunderstand & misinterpret a perceived “lack of eye contact” as rudeness or an unhelpful autistic trait, by which I mean unhelpful for the person “speaking” to an autistic.
But avoiding eye contact is not unhelpful for us:
Quite the opposite.
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Not making eye contact helps us focus on the most important sensory input in that moment ~ maybe speech, maybe not.
Not making eye contact helps us filter out the unimportant & distracting sensory inputs many non-autistics are able to filter out intuitively including visual, auditory, physical & so on.
Not making eye contact helps avoid the physical pain some autistics feel when eye contact is forced.
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Other traits discouraged in autistics for being socially inappropriate or different to “normal & accepted behaviour” are exaggerated gesturing & exaggerated facial expressions. Again, these can be essential weapons in our armoury for receiving & delivering communication.
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I vividly remember times when the spoken word would not come & I resorted to willing others to “hear” my thoughts through touch (another potential no-no), telepathy & the occasional fortuitous accompanying music track!
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With all this in mind,
imagine how autistic people feel when they’re forced to “look at” & “make eye contact with” a person who’s “speaking” to them?
Because that’s what’s happening to autistic people every day, in every town, directly & indirectly, in schools, at work, in social & even some health care situations. And, generally, autistic people do not have an interpreter (to interpret the different ways of speaking non-autistics have to autistics) so autistics have to work extra hard to interpret for themselves, to understand before responding. Generally, autistics (especially children, the undiagnosed or the unaware) don’t even know they’re trying to communicate in a language that isn’t actually their first language!
I do feel practices promoted as being “helpful” to autistics ~ in that they “help” autistics “speak” in a more non-autistic way so as to better “fit in” & be understood ~ can stifle rather than amplify autistic voices, disable rather than enable (more on this later).
So, forcing (eye to) eye contact is a hindrance to autistics, not a help, in the same way removing Rose’s interpreters would be a hindrance to her. Not forcing eye contact enables autistic people to better hear, interpret, understand & respond because “speaking” may not be an autistic person’s first ~ or native ~ language.
As with Rose, I would like to see authentic autistic communication, in all its forms, respected & acknowledged with non-autistics making an effort to “talk” to autistics in autistic language ... for autistics to be enabled & encouraged to explore forms of communication that work for us ~ as a rule, not by exception.
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At the very least give autistics space to communicate in ways they choose. Accept our idiosyncrasies & “mistakes” as you would accept those of others making the effort to speak in a non-native tongue or language.
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As an autistic who’s been unknowingly “speaking” in my second language for decades I may often appear fluent. I’ve practiced, observed, rehearsed, adapted & learned from many mistakes. I’ve obviously “managed” being autistic at work to a senior level but I worked hard to fit in & intuitively developed strategies to fulfil defined roles. But I still stumble, especially without structure, preparation, clear “rules of engagement”, purpose or “permissions” or when tired, overwhelmed or in crisis.
What might helpful communication guidance look like?
- learning each others' unwritten rules;
- learning how to recognise the inauthentic;
- learning how to recognise & set our own boundaries & how to assert ourselves when those boundaries are breached (as they often are, routinely, as the less well meaning take advantage of autistic vulnerabilities & positive autistic traits, to the extent that such abuse becomes normalised & difficult to recognise as “wrong”);
- learning how not to absorb & internalise others’ bad behaviour to protect self-esteem;
- learning what healthy relationships look like.
Learning all of this indirectly,
without feeling these lessons are aimed at addressing deficits.
Bridge our differences, don’t dam(n) our differences!
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Interested in learning more?
Read this excellently observed recent twitter thread by Katy Benson @KatyBenson20 on the commonly used in school SALT (Speech & Language Therapy) Talkabout programme (the trigger for me finally capturing my prolonged ponderings on autistic language & talking autistic).
This #autismrich family has contact with the Talkabout programme. I hope it’s being used selectively, avoiding the elements highlighted by Katy which are extremely worrying & damaging to already fragile autistic self-esteem. I hope the focus is restricted to the useful guidance on topics like being assertive, disagreeing respectively & what makes a good friend (because these skills are valuable to all).
For alternative thinking on how to approach SALT & set IEP targets with autistic children read this blog post shared by Emily Lees, an autistic Speech & Language Therapist, @EmilioLees on twitter.
For insight into autistic lived experience & the challenges of “speaking” when speech is not your 1st language read
this twitter thread (& others) by AnnMemmott PGC @AnnMemmott
For a good read on the subject from an A list autistic,
Temple Grandin, read any of her books, in particular
“Thinking in Pictures”:
For a fascinating read on the commonalities
of autistic authoring (&, by default, autistic communication) read “Writers on the Spectrum” by Julie Brown.
It investigates the writings of a number of autistic authors & highlights a set of common traits. I recognise each & every one in myself, including the “messy” writing process, a rich use of symbolism, the repetition, randomness & rhythms of narrative & motivations for writing.
Finally, & by illustration (literally if preferred),
read anything by Mel Baggs, a non-verbal autistic lady who found a voice through writing. And what a voice. The words I’ve read so far have resonated greatly with me.
There are those who do not appreciate
“verbal” autistics “speaking” for “non-verbal” autistics.
But I would ask them to consider this:
“If I’m happy for Mel, a non-verbal autistic, to “speak” for me through her writing then why wouldn’t a non-verbal autistic be happy for me to speak for them?”
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Because, at the end of the day, others are assuming speech is the first language of those of us who verbalise. But it may not be. And others may assume those of us who don't verbalise can't communicate effectively. But maybe it’s the recipient who’s not “hearing” effectively.
As mentioned, I consider my first language to be autistic. I “speak” using a variety of devices, depending on my audience, my ability & capacity in that moment. I’m often comfortable communicating in pictures, illustration, symbolism, telepathy &, most recently, clay. But as many don’t seem to be tuned into those methods, I resort to spoken & written words (with a good dose of supporting hand gestures & exaggerated facial expressions) in the hope of being understood.
Maybe, having thought my first language was verbal for so long, I haven’t yet found my authentic autistic “voice”, hence the mix, the chaos, of communications from me.
I’ll keep working on it.
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The autistic author Tom Angleberger wrote a great article for The Guardian & talked about the challenges of word flow:
" ... the words are usually either coming out of my mouth & driving everybody to desperation, or flooding my brain & driving me to desperation."
If you want to “see” how I feel most comfortable “speaking” visit me on Pinterest @saralawler because, actually, it’s all in the pictures! Specifically these boards: My time, An Affinity with A | all things autism & Out of the mouths of autistics.
For even more diverse autistic & neurodiverse voices & their own unique forms of communication,
see my board The A Tribe.
In a squirrel’s nutshell,
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I truly believe the bulk of autistic difficulties & perceived deficits arise from being native Autistics talking Autistic (first language Autistic) but not recognised as such.
Think of us as this & we may all find a more effective, accepting, inclusive, enabling way of being ... of living & working together, on equal terms, for mutual benefit.
Value our different ways of thinking, manifested in our different ways of “speaking” & communicating.
Because to change us is to disable us.
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Yours faithfully
Native Autistic Talking Autistic
First Language Autistic
#AutismRich
P.S. Aye-Aye symbolism & general word play ;)
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